Hanging In My Mind

To have someone
Whose aches
I tried and longed to soothe
Say that they
Would want for me to lose
My life
At my own hand no less
I confess
Has opened up a wound
Now I’m trying
My hardest not
To let it consume
My psyche
Though it seems highly likely
I'll have to work through
This problem alone
Just another thing to harden
My aching heart of stone

©A. Bougie 9/17/2017

Inspiration comes from many unexpected sources...
I found out a guy I dated lied and his response was to say that I should go hang myself. I don't plan on hanging myself for the indiscretions of a dishonest person I had no guilt in. The thoughts of friends who had chosen suicide in the face of their pain and loneliness did rush into my mind however, along with the realization that I have or am dealing with very similar situations to those I knew who did give up. Despite my strength to stay among the living, I was pained greatly by being told that I should hang myself, especially coming from someone I had been falling in love with. Trying not to be jaded by the experience, but some things are easier said than done. 
Thankfully so, (in this case particularly) as I was glad to tell the the man who suggested my suicide to be proper reaction upon discovering his infidelity- "Though I appreciate your friendly suggestion, I won't be hanging myself, thanks!"