Decisions, Decisions

Wanting to make
The right choice
Decisions, decisions
Life altering options
How do I
Direct my
Self
To prosperity
To keep learning
To a love
That feels right
Satisfaction
In action
What steps
Must I take
To relate
Manifestation
Of all my marvelous dreams?

I keep looking
Within
Without
Wondering
Wandering
Willing the well
To water
My needs for growth
I suppose
It may be time
For change
To recognize
My powers manipulated
In ways understated
Freedom beckons
Though fearful
Of repercussions
Your discussions
Leave me drained

I can no longer
Contain
These thoughts
I am not
With whom I need to be
It feels wrong to me
I want to leave
I need my privacy
To sustain my energy
 
Daily
Rationalizations are rendered
Relentlessly
As I hurt you
As you hurt me
These negative vibrations
Reverberate dissonance
Through my being
When I long to be seeing
The light
I am left
In the dark of night

(8/31/2014)