Fleeting Beauty

When the sun peaks
On the horizon
At the angle
That leaves clouds golden
Fuscha and orange
For a moment
My attention is beholden
Held gracefully
Graciously
By the beauty
Fleeting into dusk

© Amber Morgaine Bougie 5/29/2019

Shine Bright (Broadside)

The coincidence
Control center
Is working overtime
So stay in line
Your time is coming
To hit the ground running
Accelerate into motion
Thoughts that will
Collide
And coincide
Increasing cognizance
In our daily lives
Intriguing finds
Great minds
Think alike
Know when things
Turn out right
Working to make
The light
Shine-
And shine bright
 

© Amber Morgaine Bougie -  4/6/2008

Winning Smile

 

Excited, exhausted

Twitter pated and tenuously hopeful

With nervous overtones

I turned onto Turia

Recognizing a terrace

I had only seen in pictures

From your perspective

Inside

Looking out

Now glimpsed

From outside

Looking up

Double parked

Hazards blinking

Fearful of letting

My heart do the thinking

Though not enough

To stop the music

Felt from afar

Leading me

For the first time

Into your arms

Incapable of controlling

The smile that widened

When your door opened

To invite me in

Gratefully recalling

A smile which always
Comes back again

Remembering

That moment when

We both let love win

© Amber Morgaine Bougie 1/26/2019

Love Light

Venus beams it's love alone
Watching from across the sky
As the Moon does a half step
Promenading with Jupiter
This evening it suits her
To explore the night
Lead by naught
Save her own light

© A. Bougie (7/20/2018)

(FUCK) Heroin (I miss my family and friends)

With a tourniquet
And a needles' prick
Attempting to soothe
A certain nervous tic
That both loved and hated
Warm familiar rush
Creates its' false sense of ease
Bringing him home again one last time
Following the nod
He'll say goodnight
Sleep away and die in a dream
Upon the morrow
Your mourning he’ll borrow

© A. Bougie 2002 - Edited 7/27/2018

Being In Tune Now

Dancing

Lifted by the divine wind

Gratefully given

Through the music of the spheres

Fully engulfed

Within a tense

Holding such presence

For seconds

Time seems to play tricks

Appearing in elastic motion

As I bathe in the ocean

Of boundless energy

Provided to me

When I choose to awaken

And allow

Myself to fall away

Being

In tune now

© A. Bougie (3/25/2018)

Contemporary Confusion (Spoken Word on Soundcloud)

Contemporary confusion
The standard of illusion
It's something like cold fusion
And midway to denial
All we choose to defile
Meanwhile-
Reconcile
Hurry, there's not much left
Worthwhile
Happiness
Have a free trial-
Smile
What is this?
Synthesis
How could I miss-
Bliss?
In breathing
And being-
Not looking
But seeing-
In this life
We create strife,
And our thoughts are self fulfilling
So think of all you're willing

© A. Bougie (4/27/2002)

Kinetics (Spoken Word on Soundcloud)

Let's get this ball rolling

Now just like I said before

I'll be

Feeding on the motion

I'll be

Buzz-Buzz-Zooming

'Cause I can't stop moving

I'm running on kinetics

A welcomed return

From my lymphatic sojourn

Amping towards emphatic

Hell I'm damn near ecstatic

I passed through all the static

Focusing my aim

Getting a clear view

Of what I need to do

No more holding my breath

'Till I nearly turn blue

That stuff just isn't cool

I'm done and tired of
Being someone’s damn fool

© A. Bougie 12/3/2007

Please Take Flight

God
Please
Let me grow
Help me to know
Everything I need
In order to succeed
These otherworldly plans
I’ve made
To engage fully
My mind
Make proper use
Of time
Taking steps
On the road
The only one for me
Clearly I can see
Everything coming along
At a faster relative pace
Working toward this place
Of dreams and learning
Meditation and growth
Joy and peace
I will not release
My motivation
Or belief
Something this way comes
To some it numbs
All reason
Others awaken
Spirits formerly dormant
Opening eyes
As they realize
A full picture colored
Created
With intentions
With ideas and inventions
Kaleidoscopically
In tune with what we see
Arrays of displays
Distractions endeared
Imbibing as we feared
Our future failures
Into becoming
A reason not to try something

God
Please
Give me strength
To move away from the brink
Of desperation
Allow that I find
Sublime elation
Through my deeds
Solace in my self
Courage to uphold
My convictions
Grant me
Serenity
Humble wisdom
Based in light
As I learn
To make dreams
Take flight

© A. Bougie (9/3/2009)

I Want...

I want to cook a homemade meal and rub each other's feet. I want to spend at least 5 minutes a day where we talk about why we feel so beat or what made today neat. I want you to ask me… Anything. I want to feel as though there’s nothing about me you couldn’t accept or weren’t curious to know and that you see my mind as a bottomless hole where you’re not afraid to go. I want to exist knowing there are arms that long to hold me until I am no longer lonely. I want raw passion, kisses, sweaty thrusts and nibbles. I want all that I am willing to give. I refuse to succumb to a petty guise, like Eartha Kitt for love I won’t compromise. I refuse to concede this need.

© A. Bougie 12/20/2017

A Calm Moment

Standing

Still amongst the onrushing
Cold winds blowing around me
The mist of my breath is taken
Lost in the night time
As my eyes are drawn upward
To the light of the full moon rising
Finding a calm moment
With a clear mind
I hear fallen leaves crisp
Wafting in evening autumn air
Chilled, howling and brisk

© A. Bougie (12/2/2017)
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Dreaming… (So Many Things)

I stopped
To watch
You sleep
As the sun rose
Up high
Rays of light
Permeate
The sky
Still a mystery- I
Don't know why
You remain
With your eyes closed
Rather than
Bathe yourself
In the warm light
Of love beaming

I hold hope
And so many things
Out of my control
So much light
I hope to
Take up flight
Off into the sun
This battle is one
I will not forget
You say there is
No more
I find
You still
Loving
The life that you will
Fill
With memories
Of graces
Filled
With time
Flowing
Out with the tide

This morning comes
Without asking
Like an
Unexpected guest
Wrapped
Wreathed
I pray
I breathe
I believe
So many things
I can't control
So many things
I try to hold
And be held
To feel whole
So fully empty
Cresting the brim
Filling more
Than should fit in
We learn
There can be no end
To what never did begin
So thus
This emptiness is filled
As light willed
The day into being

Still sleeping
You're not seeing
Your halo
Wrung around
Holding sound
Vibrations unbroken
Beneath the waves
Between the stars
Dreams,
Dreams with you
Breathing,
Breathing me in
An aroma
Indiscreet
Yet undisputed
Sanctity

Still with me
Still with me
These dreams
Of a fool
Tottering
Upon a broken stool
This precipice
This tower
This hour
Holds me in
Allows me to be
Forgiven
Though you
Won't let me in
Your chambers
Are locked
You've closed
The blinds
This love I find
Alone
Longing for a lift
Not just a
Fly by
In the night

I dreamt
To see
To be
Within your light
The same light
You see
But fight
Fearing
The searing
Rays
Flowing in
Unimpeded
As the love 

I gather

With it I
Suds up
And lather
Washing myself
Clean

I hold
The dream
I hold
The light
You hold
Your heart hidden away
Still sleeping
I wonder
What you're dreaming
I do

So divine
Is this time
Worth wishing
Worth waiting
On wings beating
Back the clouds
Bringing that feeling
Back around
Into circulation
Such connotation
Currently corralled
I remain proud
To be alive

© A. Bougie (8/3/2008) 

Colors (My Mother Was)

Purple, yellow-green and blue
(So funny these are now my favorite)
Colors
My mother was
When wheeled from a chamber
In the funeral parlor

This was the day
That I had dreadded
Not the birthday I'd expected
Seventeen
Like a fairy tale curse
Or a bad dream

Her body was
Lifeless and cold
Her dead eyes were closed
I kissed her cheek
Cut a lock of her hair
And learned
The true meaning of despair


© A. Bougie (original written December 2000 -edited- 11/12/2017)
Hard to believe it's now been 17 years since the day that inspired this. Still miss my Mom as much as ever.

7-11 (To Love You All the Same)

On your birthday 
I wanted
To wish you well
          To tell
You that I
May have been hurt
But honey I've learnt
To love
Your endearing words

When full
          Of well
                   Meaning intent

To take
Your searing words
When void
           Of well
                    Meaning intent
In with
Understanding

The fears
          The anger
                    All the love and pain

From whence they came

And to love you
All the same

But you see
I
Was afraid
          It was not
The right time

To try
As though

          One could actually
Find a right time
To try
As though
          This love could ever be
                    All that easy

To express fully
While there
          May still be
So much left to say
Being shushed away

Out of convenience
We store
The refuse
In darkened shelves
Below the heart
Stacked
          Provisions
                    Precariously
                              Positioned
          Pernicious presumptions practiced
                                Precedent

                    Principles
          Pronouncing
Solar plexus shrieks scathing
Entrenched anxieties encountering
Agitations resurgent
Compelling one to
          Reliably
                    Refuse
                              Relations
          Running roads restless
                              Reacting
                    Rancorously
          Refracting
Intentions, ineptly intolerant
Yellow
          Untenable
                    Ideals
                             Easily
                    Ousting
          Affections
Yearning
Stacked
Below the heart
In darkened shelves
The refuse
We store
Out of convenience

To organize the (nearly) intangible
Ideas that inspire our dreams
We build compartments
To carry on
To say so long
To what can
And cannot come with us
As we follow the winds
Breathing in the direction
Of the oncoming air

Blowing
Out the candles
As you make a wish
On your birthday
And you resolve
In the new year
To make advances
To organize the (nearly) intangible
Ideas that inspire our dreams

As though
          One could actually
Find a right time
To try
As though
          This dream could ever be
                   All that easy
To live fully
While afraid
To try
To find the right time
          It will always
Be waiting
To be seen

Finding courage
In compassion

Trying not to ration
Servings of love
Espoused
Even withstanding despair
Dreams demand endurance
Determination and unrelenting reverence
No bounty is promised
From the present
A guarantee cannot be made
But the yearning can be stayed

I want
And I’m wanting
To wish you well
          To tell
You that I
Am afraid
I have been hurt
But honey I’ve learnt
To love
With wild abandon
Without compunction
As a reason to function
Regardless of a
Return
To let my passions
Burn
Understanding
The fears
          The anger
                   All the love and pain

From whence they came

And to love you 

All the same
Poem © - A. Bougie (8/29 - 9/21/2016)
Photo © Dan Tirrell - Dan Tirrell - FB (2018)

Careful how you ask for things... (Fable)

Blustering in through an open window beside her, the wind brought a chill to the back of her neck. Leaning over to close the window she remarked "Boy it's getting chilly out these days." to the dog warming her feet. Looking back she could remember it was only a month ago she'd been in that field with the air so still and the hot afternoon sun blazing down on her. Then she had been asking the universe to please send her a cooling breeze. "Took you long enough!" She thought to the universe. "Guess I should have been more specific on when I wanted the wind with my request that day, huh?"

© A. Bougie 10/19/2017

Written from a writing prompt on the element AIR presented by the lovely and talented writer  Victoria Erickson.