Redemption from the Abyss

Standing at a precipice

Flanked by twin stone light posts

I saw the red and black

Diamond back snake

Disappearing

Down into the abyss

Freefalling face first

No time to think

With my instinct

Instantly I chose

And dove

In pursuit to

Redeem the snake

Casting myself head first

Into the abyss

Fearless with only

Wind and darkness

Around me

Until I felt

The tail of the body

Gripped securely

By my left hand

After which I turned

Round by force of will upward

To rise from the depths

Bringing with me

The serpent that had been cast

Down to the abyss

Back up toward

The light

 

© Amber Morgaine Bougie 9/13/2020

*written from a dream experience

What I Need

I need no
False bravado
Incommunicado

I need
Solid foundations
My water in the well
My fire breathing freely

I need
A love that really sees me
As truly worthy
Who works to build trust
And feels that they must
Be forthright

I need
No less than I give
The passion to live
Out loud
And live my dreams

I need to 
Realize divinity
Is best appreciated
Actively

© Amber Morgaine Bougie
9/3/2017 & 8/9/2020

Melt into the Earth

Some days
I just melt
Into the Earth
Because it's the only thing
That has always embraced me
Reliably
No matter
My perceived worth

© Amber Morgaine Bougie
11/14/2018

Crash Landing

We were on a plane together
I don’t know where we were coming from
And I don’t know where we were going to
All I know
Is that we were flying together
On a grey day over a stormy sea

It seemed as though
We'd barely taken off
Before we started going down
Everyone panicked
Then the tail hit the water
But we caught flight again
For one brief second of hope
Until we skipped along the surface
Unable to rise once more

The emergency door was opened
So we crossed the aisle to go out it
Hurriedly though the plane was floating
You led me out onto the wing
We didn’t take our floatation devices
The shore was rocky but it looked
Like such an easy swim
 Ignoring the storm around us
Holding hands we jumped in

Cold water jarring soaked us
Fully clothed I was slowed
My movement inhibited
As the storms current prohibited
An easy swim to safety
Suddenly a wave came
So high it lifted the plane
Cresting just after

You were still beside me
When I looked before it hit
But you didn’t turn to see
If I was still there
Straight ahead you stared
So focused on the shore

The wave hit
Like a freight train
A fly swatter
Smacking me down
Down-down-down
Into the depths

I struggled not to breathe in the sea
As I used all my might to claw upward
All I could see were air bubbles in distorted light
I felt them carried easily by gravity
Speeding to the surface faster than me
Time appeared to stop
I feared I would never reach the top
My hands seemed unable to make purchase
Against the downward current

I believe it was only by force of will
That I reached the surface
To find myself alone completely
You were gone, there was only me
Alone and lost in the stormy sea
Freezing in the rain
As the rocky shore ahead
Silently called to me
Ending the dream

Meanwhile
In your mind
I was spinning
Swimming in a round pool
To create a whirlpool
In nature amongst some rocks

So wild the symbolism
How clearly reality is shown
Through these synchronized episodes
The connection they prove
While you remain dissolute
As you have disappeared to flee
From thought and sight of me
Your unconscious clings
So I haunt you in dreams


© Amber Morgaine Bougie
11/5/2019

Inspired by synchronized dreams had by both parties on the same night.

Rip Tide (Broadside with photo)

 
I see naught but red
Up in a normally grey sky
Feeling an ominous sinking dread
Will you save my fears from coming true?
Can you honestly tell me
That I'll always have you?
Time flies back on ravens' wings
Love falls away
Along with needless things
Leaving me lonely
Drowning in the wake
Of a thousand crashing waves
Each one I can't control
Pressure, every oncoming flow
Spinning, carried by backwash
As I attempt to catch ahold
Everything goes so fast now
While I can barely move
Slow and stop motion
Interpreting a new frame of mind
Grasping aimlessly for a love that's left me behind
Suppose I'll get caught in the tide
And let it rip me away

© Amber Morgaine Bougie 

7/26/2001

Fleeting Beauty

When the sun peaks
On the horizon
At the angle
That leaves clouds golden
Fuscha and orange
For a moment
My attention is beholden
Held gracefully
Graciously
By the beauty
Fleeting into dusk

© Amber Morgaine Bougie 5/29/2019

Shine Bright (Broadside)

The coincidence
Control center
Is working overtime
So stay in line
Your time is coming
To hit the ground running
Accelerate into motion
Thoughts that will
Collide
And coincide
Increasing cognizance
In our daily lives
Intriguing finds
Great minds
Think alike
Know when things
Turn out right
Working to make
The light
Shine-
And shine bright
 

© Amber Morgaine Bougie -  4/6/2008

Winning Smile

 

Excited, exhausted

Twitter pated and tenuously hopeful

With nervous overtones

I turned onto Turia

Recognizing a terrace

I had only seen in pictures

From your perspective

Inside

Looking out

Now glimpsed

From outside

Looking up

Double parked

Hazards blinking

Fearful of letting

My heart do the thinking

Though not enough

To stop the music

Felt from afar

Leading me

For the first time

Into your arms

Incapable of controlling

The smile that widened

When your door opened

To invite me in

Gratefully recalling

A smile which always
Comes back again

Remembering

That moment when

We both let love win

© Amber Morgaine Bougie 1/26/2019

Love Light

Venus beams it's love alone
Watching from across the sky
As the Moon does a half step
Promenading with Jupiter
This evening it suits her
To explore the night
Lead by naught
Save her own light

© A. Bougie (7/20/2018)

(FUCK) Heroin (I miss my family and friends)

With a tourniquet
And a needles' prick
Attempting to soothe
A certain nervous tic
That both loved and hated
Warm familiar rush
Creates its' false sense of ease
Bringing him home again one last time
Following the nod
He'll say goodnight
Sleep away and die in a dream
Upon the morrow
Your mourning he’ll borrow

© A. Bougie 2002 - Edited 7/27/2018

Being In Tune Now

Dancing

Lifted by the divine wind

Gratefully given

Through the music of the spheres

Fully engulfed

Within a tense

Holding such presence

For seconds

Time seems to play tricks

Appearing in elastic motion

As I bathe in the ocean

Of boundless energy

Provided to me

When I choose to awaken

And allow

Myself to fall away

Being

In tune now

© A. Bougie (3/25/2018)

Contemporary Confusion (Spoken Word on Soundcloud)

Contemporary confusion
The standard of illusion
It's something like cold fusion
And midway to denial
All we choose to defile
Meanwhile-
Reconcile
Hurry, there's not much left
Worthwhile
Happiness
Have a free trial-
Smile
What is this?
Synthesis
How could I miss-
Bliss?
In breathing
And being-
Not looking
But seeing-
In this life
We create strife,
And our thoughts are self fulfilling
So think of all you're willing

© A. Bougie (4/27/2002)

Kinetics (Spoken Word on Soundcloud)

Let's get this ball rolling

Now just like I said before

I'll be

Feeding on the motion

I'll be

Buzz-Buzz-Zooming

'Cause I can't stop moving

I'm running on kinetics

A welcomed return

From my lymphatic sojourn

Amping towards emphatic

Hell I'm damn near ecstatic

I passed through all the static

Focusing my aim

Getting a clear view

Of what I need to do

No more holding my breath

'Till I nearly turn blue

That stuff just isn't cool

I'm done and tired of
Being someone’s damn fool

© A. Bougie 12/3/2007

Please Take Flight

God
Please
Let me grow
Help me to know
Everything I need
In order to succeed
These otherworldly plans
I’ve made
To engage fully
My mind
Make proper use
Of time
Taking steps
On the road
The only one for me
Clearly I can see
Everything coming along
At a faster relative pace
Working toward this place
Of dreams and learning
Meditation and growth
Joy and peace
I will not release
My motivation
Or belief
Something this way comes
To some it numbs
All reason
Others awaken
Spirits formerly dormant
Opening eyes
As they realize
A full picture colored
Created
With intentions
With ideas and inventions
Kaleidoscopically
In tune with what we see
Arrays of displays
Distractions endeared
Imbibing as we feared
Our future failures
Into becoming
A reason not to try something

God
Please
Give me strength
To move away from the brink
Of desperation
Allow that I find
Sublime elation
Through my deeds
Solace in my self
Courage to uphold
My convictions
Grant me
Serenity
Humble wisdom
Based in light
As I learn
To make dreams
Take flight

© A. Bougie (9/3/2009)

I Want...

I want to cook a homemade meal and rub each other's feet. I want to spend at least 5 minutes a day where we talk about why we feel so beat or what made today neat. I want you to ask me… Anything. I want to feel as though there’s nothing about me you couldn’t accept or weren’t curious to know and that you see my mind as a bottomless hole where you’re not afraid to go. I want to exist knowing there are arms that long to hold me until I am no longer lonely. I want raw passion, kisses, sweaty thrusts and nibbles. I want all that I am willing to give. I refuse to succumb to a petty guise, like Eartha Kitt for love I won’t compromise. I refuse to concede this need.

© A. Bougie 12/20/2017